Tuesday, November 9, 2010


This is Dexter

An OK day

Today is an OK day. My head is in a good place which leads to me being a bit more productive at work (a good thing)

Actually have some killers tunes spinning madly. Grateful Dead 4/26/72 Jarhundert Hall, Germany. I haven't had much desire to listen to music lately, but today it feels really good.

Monday, November 8, 2010

Me then...

That's me when I was a kid ... those eyes were weary and tired. That smile was hiding something awful.

Me now...

A recent pic of me on the beach from a weekend getaway with 7 friends.


I am abandoned
A fleeting memory…images like papers in the wind I try to grab

I am discarded
Like yesterdays gossip stacked in the corner to molder away

I am forgotten
An ethereal specter…vitreous matter in the corners of my vision

I am forlorn
The statue of a child weathered in a patina of tears

I am silent
A scream on torn chords shouted at deaf ears

I am broken
Used by all the kings’ men…not to be mended and happy again

I am worthless
A seed that should have been spent in the dirt

I am nothing

I am abandoned

I am Shane

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

A little anxious...

Two things happen this week...I start EMDR therapy on Thursday and I will be on the Oprah Winfrey Show of Friday. I don't know how to feel about it...oh well

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Perhaps the first of many...

This is my first stab at a blog. I am unsure of what happens from here. We'll just have to believe that the road goes somewhere...